Mr nice guy

I hate being the good guy, the nice guy.
I hate being the peacemaker.

I hate not fighting a battle, even when I know I'm right. I hate letting it drop. I hate not pointing out to the other person that they said this or that I meant that or that they're just totally wrong.

I hate that I constantly "let it go" with my sister, with some (but thankfully not many) of my friends, and most of the Family-At-Large (also more or less constantly).

And while I know I am being the "better man" (whatever the fuck that is) the other person doesn't know it. They genuinely think they've won and I'm wrong. So there's absolutely no satisfaction in it apart from knowing myself that I've taken the path of least resistance for the common good of the relationship, the peace, and/or the sanity of both parties.

Life is like a diplomatic peace process sometimes, and I hate it.